**UPDATE** Ok, so I've really enjoyed your comments! Thanks so much! Here are my thoughts as a result...how about if I make a little "blog email group" or something along that line, and try to send out a monthly email to all of you? I would include pictures and thoughts and updates. Would that work?? I think so...and it won't cost me anything, unlike this here blog :) So I need you to come out of hiding, GINNY, and anyone else who is lurking. I need email addresses. PLEASE send a quick little email to me at Lambrose5@gmail.com. I'll form a group and send an update soon, or atleast I'll try :) Thanks guys...you are the best!!
This past Sunday in church, our pastor's lifepoint was "Whatever your status, honor Jesus." He spoke about accepting your current status and looking at your job, your relationships, your life, as an opportunity to honor Jesus. He encouraged us to DO whatever it is that we are doing with our whole heart. DO. IT. WHOLEHEARTEDLY.
Boy, did I need that sermon. So much of what he spoke about was already on my heart, I was just dragging my feet, denying that I needed to make any real change. I've been DOING a lot of things. As a full-time working (outside of the home) mom, the schedule is manageable but busy. It is manageable because I have a very involved husband (for which I am extremely thankful) who has a great desire to be "there."
That being said, we are still busy with three kids and jobs that keep our minds and bodies engaged. If I'm being completely honest with myself and you, since beginning the adoption process, I have not been fully and appropriately engaged in my work. I have spent way too much time on the internet, researching this and that, completing paperwork, talking to agencies, learning from other adoptive parents, checking on so and so's blog, or updating mine. It's become a great distraction for me, at home and at work. Not to say that some of what I was doing wasn't necessary and extremely useful, it has still pulled me away from my work responsibilities and my family.
I realized as Pastor Ralph spoke that I needed to make some changes. Not only do I need to change my attitude about my job and the people/children that I work with, but I also need to return to my former, more productive ways of BEING a therapist and BEING WITH my family.
"You need to let go of the blog." Was that simply my thoughts or THE voice I so long to hear?? I'm not entirely sure. Regardless, the message is loud and clear.
I need to let go of my blog.
It's a costly endeavor, both of my time and my funds. I must make better choices when it comes to my time and my money...these are weak areas for me, I recognize that. It's time for me to take some necessary steps to honor the Lord with my work, both in our home and at my job. It pains me to admit that whether noticed by my coworkers or not, my job performance and work ethic have suffered over the last two or three years. (Oooh, that hurts!)
Soooo...I have a plan, of sorts. The first is to delete all but a handful of my favorite blogs from my "favorites" list on my home computer. There are a few families that I need and want to stay in touch with as their support has been a lifeline for me.
I will return to work in two weeks and delete all adoption related information from my computer. No more blogs at work. No more yahoo groups at work. No more shopping at work. And most importantly, no more updating my blog at work....or at home.
I'm closing up shop, turning the last page, ending this chapter of our adoption journey. Blessed Beyond Measure is ending with this post. I want very much to keep in touch with you all, in some form or fashion, but for the glory of my Maker, it's not going to be via my blog anymore.
You can reach me at Lambrose5@gmail.com
I'm on Facebook and will continue to post a snippet of our goings on every day or so. I have also posted pictures and will continue to do so. If you want to be my FB friend, send me an email or comment on this post so I can find you.
I'm hoping to have this blog made into a book or journal. I don't want to lose all of these thoughts and memories, your comments and encouragements. If anyone has any suggestions on how I can go about doing that before I shut this thing down, please let me know.
As for you guys, it has been an absolute pleasure. It has been a pleasure to share our family with you, to share my heart with you, and to have you along for the ride of a lifetime. You have been my strength, my encouragement, my love, and my laughter. I am so very grateful for you all. Thank you so much!!
My goal is clean up this little life of mine. I need to clean up my mind, clean up my heart, and clean up my schedule. Don't get me wrong...I don't have a potty mouth or mind ;) It's just my way of saying that I recognize where my areas of weakness are and for the sake of my family and my self, and to honor Jesus, it's time for me to shape up.
I want to live each and every day with a content and grateful heart. He has given me so much and I want to enjoy the little things, the moments that I'll never get back, and do everything with all of my heart. I want to live this life WHOLEHEARTEDLY!
So until we meet again, THANK YOU!
Much love and many blessings,
Oh, and as a little treat to you and to me, instead of taking the time to post new pics of the kids, would you hop on over to this site... http://www.bluebugphotography.com/photocart ... enter my email address, email@example.com... the password is Lambrose...you'll see a gallery of pictures with my first name as the heading...and the access code is Family09. PLEASE check out the gorgeous slide show of pictures that were taken of my munchkins just a couple of weeks ago. I wept when I saw them for the first time. The big kids are amazing and we got some of the best shots of them...and my Alayna, well, she takes my breath away! You'll see what I mean :)